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moses and buckwheat days


today i went to a seminar about youth and children’s ministry and came away with it pretty down. it was a really good couple of hours with good things to say. nothing i probably haven’t heard, but usually a great reminder and encourager to get to the job at hand. however, there are just some days where those things hit you right in the heart and it’s not so good. sometimes keeping pace in ministry and doing all you see is necessary or you want just seems too overwhelming, sometimes it just feels like there is no way to make it all happen. sometimes i just really wonder why on earth God would pick me or think i could be used to help others when i can be such a wreck. some days i feel like moses did… why me Lord? you’re joking when you want to use me, right?

the world is changing so much, spiritual living seems way down on the list of things anyone cares about, kids are drifting farther away from God, not many parents seem like they want to jump in and help and time seems to be slipping through my hands. and that’s just the short list, my longer list of insecurities and worries would be too depressing. aarrgg!

instead of moses, i would much rather get back to feeling like buckwheat. “here i is!”  he was always ready to do what the kids were doing. [samuel might be a more appropriate biblical reference with the same attitude, but i loved buckwheat from the little rascals] i would rather feel that way when God calls, jumping up and saying here i is Lord. i’ll be back there mentally in a few days, but for now, i’ll shed a few tears, feel sorry for myself, get upset at the culture, not sleep well and then get over it and back at it. it is a really great calling, just overwhelming at times!

pax: ty



One Response to “moses and buckwheat days”

  1. I’m sure you don’t need anyone quoting Bible verses to you, but I’m gonna anyway! My favorite passage when I’m feeling inadequate is 1 Corinthians 1:26,27:

    “For you see your calling, brethren, that not many wise according to the flesh, not many mighty, not many noble, are called. But God has chosen the foolish things of the world to put to shame the wise, and God has chosen the weak things of the world to put to shame the things which are mighty.”

    The cool thing is that we’re not required to be successful. We’re only required to be faithful. Everything else is God’s deal. FYI: Some of us think you are doing a bang up job! If it was easy, everybody would want to do it.

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