i’m not sure what is contributing more to me being so tired. i think the combination of the hurt and pain i’m witnessing in our students plus getting used to the cpap machine are taking their toll.
i know the cpap isn’t hard, but it’s not super simple either. it’s almost as if i’m aware of it all night and since i move so much sleeping, i wake up a few times and adjust it. that means even though i’m supposed to wake up more refreshed, it isn’t quite happening yet.
i also know that i haven’t felt as stressed as the students, but being available and a part of their time of grief and processing has worn everyone out more than expected. i’m happy to be available and will continue to at any time when needed, but i just wish i would get some real sleep instead not sleeping real well!