i realized we have a big crybaby in our house these last months, and it’s me! this morning i’ve been feeling sorry for myself because i’m still a little congested, ella is coughing up a storm and had a bad runny nose, and blah, blah, blah.
then driving to my office i realized: shut up, you’re pathetic. the list of reasons for me to be pissy lately would be laughable at best or rage inducing at worst to anyone with real problems. and really what is this self-pity and melancholy about? i think it’s about the very thing that walt mueller was here talking about last weekend: narcissism • the love of self. i’ve getting mopey because i don’t get to do what i want when i want to as much anymore. waaaaa!
it’s time to suck it up and realize that it’s not about me, my way and my agenda. life has changed in overwhelmingly good ways in the last 5 years but it means i’ve needed to change along with it. sometimes my changing and acceptance of the changes has lagged very far behind. when i look at it, i have no real problems in the bigger picture.
a wonderful and loving wife • healthy and energetic little girl • job • house • faith • a God who opens my eyes to my stupidity • friends • and on and on i could go with what God has handed me despite myself.
the things that matter, my soul, my faith, my family, my wife are things that endure over these little bumps and i need a major attitude adjustment. no here is the hard part, changing my outlook so that i stop living like a crybaby and start living like someone who’s got the hope of Christ living in them.
it’s go time!