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impending sabbath [sabbatical]!

March 11, 2013

i’m pretty excited today. why? because three weeks from today i will officially be on sabbatical [sabbath rest] from my position at harderwyk ministries as youth pastor.  my prayer on this coming time away, that like my garden plot from last summer: life will grow and renew what God intends to flourish. i’m starting to […]


October 16, 2012

  so my sabbatical journey begins officially today!  why? because at our church council meeting last night, my 11 page plan [that i’ve been working on for almost a year now] was approved and financially supported. so now i’m will be starting a journey to breath, research, rest, gain some perspective and enjoy my family […]


February 24, 2010

i realized we have a big crybaby in our house these last months, and it’s me!  this morning i’ve been feeling sorry for myself because i’m still a little congested, ella is coughing up a storm and had a bad runny nose, and blah, blah, blah. then driving to my office i realized: shut up, […]

joy, tears and timebombs

April 25, 2009

so we have had ella home now for a week today!   what an incredible amount of joy this precious little girl has brought to our family already.  it’s even strange saying the word family because even though dawn and i were a family all along, the addition of ella has added so many new dimensions […]

she’s perfect!

April 20, 2009

after our 5 day doctor check-up, ella is perfect in every way that they can tell.  she gained back weight and weighs 6 lbs 8.5 oz.  they said they haven’t seen a 5 day old look this good in a long time!  we’re so incredibly excited and blessed.  add to that a night with much […]

shrinking world

April 19, 2009

there have been several significant moments in my world in the last few days since ella’s birth. the one i’m thinking about right now is how my world just shrank considerably.  i doubt it’s permanent, but for the moment it’s very tangible.  this house, and our living room to be more precise, is our world […]

eating my words

April 17, 2009

ok, so i  want to state it officially… there was no place i would have rather been than with dawn having her c-sections while having ella! i thought i would be squeamish, i thought it would be too messy, i thought i would pass out.  but it was great and i couldn’t imagine being anywhere […]

heaven help little ella…

April 16, 2009

everything is great this morning.  happy mommy, screaming hungry baby… …and a few thoughts are running through my mind. first is i’m overwhelmed at how precious, wonderful and beautiful my little girl is.  as i look at her and hold her, i’m amazed at how perfect she looks and how much love there is for […]

i resolve to live [part two]

January 3, 2009

thanks to those who left encouragement for my last post.  it means so much and i do appreciate it. i think resolving to live means also more than just not being 6 feet under.  it means appreciating and experiencing life! the last few days i’ve been thinking about what living means since we have a […]

we get to…

November 5, 2008

[this post is not a reaction against obama’s election, just some thoughts that have been brewing that i hope have at least some shred of coherence!] this morning as people react to the election, i think i’m thinking along different lines than some.  some are screaming and shouting about how horrible life will be and […]